Let me tell you if your having sex please be careful. As for myself. I'm not even using protection but, I'm using a natural way of Birth control info:
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WITHDRAWAL
Average Failure Rate: 19%

Withdrawal, also known as coitus interruptus, has long been used for contraception as a natural response to the discovery that ejaculation into the vagina causes pregnancy. It requires no devices, involves no chemicals, and is available in any situation at no cost. Withdrawal is accomplished when, during intercourse, the man pulls out his penis just before ejaculation. This requires much discipline. As orgasm is impending, a man may not withdraw in enough time to prevent semen from escaping into the vagina. Although withdrawal has no known side effects, interruption of the sexual response cycle can greatly diminish the pleasure of a couple. Some couples, however, have worked out these problems and use withdrawal successfully.

Withdrawal is most popular among teens, the age group for which this method is also least effective. Withdrawal requires self-control and practice, which teens are generally lacking, resulting in an increased failure rate. Furthermore this method offers little protection from STDs. Lubricating fluids escape long before ejaculation; usually they contain no sperm but can transmit diseases like the AIDS virus.

source: http://www.epigee.org/guide/natural.html#withdrawal
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I use this method now, cause' I can't even afford Birth Control pills there too expensive. Is very frustrating. A month ago I was on the pill. When we went to the clinic they told me that it wasn't free anymore. That really suck for me. So, I said okay. I'll pay for the pills. I had to wait for about 4 fucking hours to get check and they told me I had to get a pasmer check. (I hope I spell it right) I now that would take money in my pocket. Well, my boyfriend's pocket. Is too expensive Health Care is. When the doctor gave me the prescription. I went to the pharmacy to pick it up. And you know what happen? They didn't gave it to me. They said my insurance is expire or something. I told them I pay for the pill and the repceptionist told me that 15 bucks could cover it all. But, I guess I was wrong. I explain to pharmacy. And they still wouldn't gave the fucking pills. I was so upset. It was downward spiral for me and my love. My boyfriend saw me upset and he told me that everything was gonna be okay. In that time we made love like
crazy so, that made us feel much better.

Now, like I'm not on a pill anymore I use that method above. I'm not telling you it will work for anybody. But, if it doesn't work for you I suggest you get on the pill, and use a condom. Anywho, sorry for talking too much I just wanted to get that off my chest.

Right now I'm feeling very hungry. I had been having problems of not eating. Ever since I stop using the birthcontrol pills I have been skipping meals. You can say, that I'm stupid. But, it's just that I have to many things in my mind. What do you think. I have my boyfriend far away from my home. I want to start making my own life. I have no job only babysitting from time to time. I want to go to school badly but, I can't afford it. I want to be with my love. I'm just to stressful right now.

Took a quiz:

Which Grunge Band Are You?

Today I'm gonna go see Bailey. She turning 5 today. And I couldn't go to her party yesterday cause' I wasn't feeling too good. I've been stress out lately. And today I woke up with a sore troat.

Dammit I'm getting a cold. Oh for god sake, that's the last thing I want to have. I hate colds. *cough*....

Anywho...my brother is gonna bake her a cake. She loves lemon cakes. Can't wait to eat it all up...I'm evil. Just kidding. I can't wait to see her and her little sister. There so cute...
I love them both.

Bailey and Jesse are the two little girls that mom babysits. There half japanese and American. And they are both so smart. Bailey build a puzzle when she was 3 years old. Look at them aren't they cute.
Can't wait...until next time...see ya....

the cute little infant is Jesse and the cute little girl is Bailey...
Happy birthday cutie!!!
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Let's all give her a happy birthday to bailey...

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User name: ezra pound
What she wrote: I love it. My boyfriend thinks I am nuts but I can give two shits what he thinks. Is it weird that I love looking in my dogs eyes as my boyfriend rams the life out of me. The way my dogs tongue dangles from his mouth.......mmmmm, I love it!

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My honest opinion of this thread:
This user started a thread...
So don't say that I made it..
you can see my replies there.
My personal opinion I only done it once. And l felt like shit...
My cat was sleeping and I didn't wanted her to get up...
you can say she didn't look...

She looks so innocent...

I'm too tired guys... I played with Bailey alot. Kids have a lot of energy I can't keep up with her.

Let me tell you what we did. We played with her new Bratz toys ...
We did Art's and crafts. And we pretend to be doctors. I guess you can say Bailey has alot of imagination on her. She's so smart.

I'm so tired guys.. ....I want to go rest...but, first explore the internet.. Then go to sleep.


You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
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emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
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Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
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(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
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optomism, even through tough times and have a
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a way of looking at going through life as a
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This how I look like guys..so if you want to know.

First of all let me say HI to all my friends...Thanks for coming to my journal. I never expected this when I first join. Anywho, this morning I woke up very crappy. I felt like shit. My head, troat, nose, and my body hurt. I felt I was gonna die.
( <----------------this how I felt this morning.) But, luckly I took Halls. That was about 8: 30 or so...But, now I feel much better. I wanted to go out today with my boyfriend. But, I don't want to infect him with my cold. He's being working hard and I don't want to be the one to get him sick. He's already sick anyways. He injured his arm and his being going to theraphy. He told me last night. Yesterday's theraphy was hard. But, At least his getting better. I want him to get better. I just hope I feel much better in the end of the day. I doubt it, I'm gonna wake up the same. But, it's 100% change I will. I just wish I had more halls. Anyways, Claudia's Anime Chamber it's getting somewhat popular. I'm very happy how my anime site it's going. That was my first site I ever built. You should of seen my first layout. It was horrible. No html added or nothing, only Cool pages crap. lol...it's funny how it just to look. Now it looks beautiful like a dream. I started learning html since last year of November. Now I look at html like another language. I still need more practice. Anyways, I'm all babbling about website design here. I should be talking about my sickness. I shouldn't get you alarm by that. Anyways, until next time...bye!!

This is for lovers out there join my this webring...Is anyone in love.


How it started..
I know him since he was 16 years old.(Right now he's 22 and I'm 23) I'm actually 1 year older than him. My brother and my boyfriend are good friends. My brother was the one who told me to out with him. So, I did. Cause' I had a huge crush on him ever since I saw him. I was in denial at first but, then I've notice I love him so much that I could marry him one day. Anyways, my friend Ransey was the one who got us together. He told me that "Danny" (my boyfriend)had a big crush on me. I couldn't belive it at first but, in turn out to be true. It was like back and forth conversation between my friend Rainsey trying to come with the conclusion if I liked him (Danny). It took me like about 2 weeks to figure it out. Cause' he would come to visit my brother alot. So, I would usually act all casual so he won't notice I like him. But I did. It was in a sunday that I asked him if he like me. He confess. He was so shy about it. He look too cute. Then we arrange a date. To be on a thursday. Cause' he has a free day on that day. I was counting the days. Until, it hit Thursday. I must of lots alot of weight. Thinking about how it was going to be. But, It turn out to be really special. We kissed, and hug. And he confess that he "Love Me" well, I was the one who told him first but, he said it back. It took me like about 8 months to tell my dad. My dad didn't wanted me to have a boyfriend. He said, I was fine by myself. In that time I was 21. So, you might think I was still living with my parents.BWT I had to sneak out to go out with him. We would go to the movies. The first movie we both saw together was American Pie 2. That was so cool. Anyways, my mom would usually help me out. So, I could see him. She's so great. Now, my dad gets along with him alot. I'm so happy.To get to point is that now we're living together. We have an apartment. Not too big but, is nice and comfortable. Anyways, to go back in the beginning of my journal I was on my mom's house and my love came to calm me down. My mom still keeps my room the same as how I left it. I was visiting her. But, all of sudden I broke down in tears. Anyways, I'm feeling relieve this pms stuff is really hard on me. I think it was that. I heard that women cry one's a month when they have there period. Is too hard for me. I hope I'm making sense on this you guys.

Well that's how it happen

Today I woke up happy...I'm feeling much better. I was too bored and decided to make a forum. About my interest in life. I love Madonna, No Doubt, and other artist. Also I love to collect...Want to see it...
My Own World Forum I put it up together. Anyways...thank you for all your comments...and thanks for visiting my journal.

I never told no one about this but here goes:

It wasn't rape to me but, it was molestation. It took palce in TJ (tijuana) in a church. I was 8 and I was so innocent and clueless about being molested. It happend like this...
I was just walking along the church. And one to the helpers of the church people ask me to come. In that age I listen to everyone. I was really naive. bwt: He needed help. He was about 60 something years old. I never thought he would do that to me. Anyways, to get to my point. He pick me up and start to touch my private parts. I was shock. Luckly he didn't rape me. He let me go and I started running. The next day. He ask me to watch out if anyone was coming. I was too stupid what he was planning to do. I did what he said and I took a peek and I notice he was molesting my best friend. I was weak I didn't do nothing I felt like shit.

Anyways, right now that I'm typing all this I just wonder what happend to that man. If I would see that son of bitch face to face I would shoot his ass....that's how much he hurt me. I was 8 years old for crying aloud...

I've notice a strange smell when I open my eyes. My mom rush me to tell me that the whole place look foggy it turns out in San Berdadino they are people burning houses wich I assume and I saw all the cars were cover with ashes. I just hope that fire won't get near here. I don't want to get burn.

Anyways, the recent entrie was very painful to typed. I never notice all of you would come and cheer me up. I want to say thank you and I really appreciated all your support. I don't know why they are pedophile people out there. I mean why are the big people are not doing nothing to stop this perverts hurting children who are innocent. That goes for babysitters who hit the kids that are supposed to be taking care of them.

Hey everyone I'm going through some very difficult time now. I feel my life is not going no where. I'm currently feel sad cause' I open up a new forum that supposed to be about music. And it's not doing too well. Here it is. But, that's not the only reason. I think I'm having and intense pain below my torso area. And I hope I don't have what I'm thinking. But, like I can't afford a pasmear check up I have to live like this and wonder if I don't have cancer or not. Anyways, it could be that I'm gonna get my period. But, I hope is that.

Hello everyone...guess what it was just a stomach ache I went to the doctor today. And they told me is just lack of nutrition. I guess I need to eat well. And that what I shall do. Anyways, I was too bore and I decided to make a Poem Archive I've notice I get out my anger, love, and emotions if I make poems about them. So, I'm very proud of that. Also I updated my anime site. And I manage to straight out every single website I have. I'm kinda :upset: today cause' I didn't went out with my boyfriend and the babysitting job haven't called. I guess I should called and see what's happening cause' I need the job.

Hi again I'm so happy. I'm gonna go to the movies. Bye for now.

Yesterday, I had a blast. I went to my boyfriend's house to relax. Before that we went to rent some DVD's movies and we decided to wacth 28 days later.. And the Hulk It was neat. I really enjoy watching it. Anyways, we ate nachos and drank Pepsi. And we cuddle up and watch it like a couple of lovebirds. It was so Romantic. After that, I can't tell you what happend. *winks*

Anyways, he took me home late it was about 12 or something. I was cold. Everything was foggy. I really had a great time with my love. Oh yeah, I wrote this poem for the hulk:
Green Man
Strength gives him power.
Green as he is, give him more power.
Power is his anger.
Anger is his life.
Destroying everything on his path.
Trying to find his emotion put together.
Trying to figure out where he comes from.
Why are his memories haunting him?
To make him angry.

NOTE: I have a poem journal entry on this adress:
Angelwings

Yesterday, my boyfriend pick me up and he wanted to rent Dragon Ball Z movies. I know guys are in to those anime. I don't know why it's so pupolar. They fight too much. It was cool though cause' it had some humor in it. Anyways, I haven't decided what I'm gonna be this Halloween. Is tomorrow and I haven't had a clue what to be. Or who to be. Tomorrow I'm gonna go help my mom giving out candy to kids and also, go trick or treating. I know I'm too old for that. But, I love candy. And plus if I'm gonna dress in Halloween why not take advantage of the holiday. Anyways, I can't wait to eat all that candy.

Oh yeah, my boyfriend is getting a cool sword. A katana sword. I can't wait to see it. I'll bet is super sharp. Man, I wish I had one. It really doesn't cost that much. It's pretty cheap.
This is how it look like Man, I want one so badly. Yeah, I know, I'm gonna tell my boyfriend to buy me one too. I really want one. I guess you can say, I got a lot of influence by the girl power thing. But, it's so cool......bite lip*

Anywho, thanks for all your comments I really appreciated.

Poseidon


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Happy Halloween to everyone

Today I woke up and notice my host that hosting my Anime Site told me that he changing everything his making his hosting a carreer thing. I assume he was telling me that he was shutting down my site. But, I was gonna let him. Anyways, he gave a me chance he let me stay. And I just hope he still well be hosting my site. And I wish him alot of luck.

This is how his hosting site looks like:
Katikai.Net

Anyways, I really need to go:
bye happy halloween.