I have a stomach flu guys. It must be the sake I drank. I got wasted this week. So...I'm feeling crappy.

I didn't put the url cause' It made me vomit with rage!!
Hello everyone. Yesterday, I got really pist off of this fucking forum I visit.
Is a good forum but, some of people there, are full of heartless teenage boys.

Is too cold. It all started when I decided to post my site. My lovely site called "Claudia's Anime Chamber" I made a kiss ass layout that took me days to put it together. I didn't put any details when I put up this thread. Cause' I was in a hurry. I had to do some things in my house.

Anyways, to get to my point. I thought I was gonna get review by professionals. They were some. But, I guess the forum has
false advertisement. It generaly states that if you post your site you gonna get review by "professional website designers" Which I truly did. But, the thing that bugs me that most of them were teenagers. I guess you could expect on a forum like that. I guess in all forums in general. But, some got me ideas to improve my website design skills they were very helpful some just said mean stuff. I guess I was in a wrong place. I truly was. I kinda felt alienated. I was the only female in that place. I kinda felt like a babysitter. That takes me back....

Anyways, some of the teenagers were rude, that made me think that the reason they go to forums is to raised their self-esteem up, just like bullies. They basically all loners. They have no idea how it's like in the real world.

I decided to post a new thread that made sense not, like stupid thread
about colors. I made a thread called "Why are some people this forum are mean?" I typed a long paragraph. I got some respond. Some supported my thread some didn't.

There was one immature 17 year old told me that I didn't go out in the real world. (Not to be rude I post on his level.) I couldn't believe I was reading. Some 17 year old is telling me I don't know the real world. He doesn't know what the fuck his talking about.


(Look at my entry why I can't go to school. Look and you'll find out This is my world...)

Anyways, he stills lives with his parents and living with his own
parents rules and telling me that I don't know the real world. That fucking spoil brat doesn' know shit. For sure...Come on....
I'm 24 years old....and I'm have lots of plans in the future. I'm starting to get my own life together.

And me and my boyfriend are planning to move in together get our life straight. That fucking prick doesn't know what's his talking about.

I got so upset and told him off...But, I was getting tired of the users post, they were saying I made a whining thread. If they truly feel that way. Why do they fucking post on my thread. Keep your comments to yourself that's what I always say. Some called my thread sexes...and I was not making sense.

My post was to prove that teenagers these days are so in to internet world. They use the internet to raise their ego, and they spend hours in forums and posting bullshit and making people feel bad. (Which I truly did.) Is that a life? no. Is that a accomplishment? hell no.

They should be doing someting constructive. Like,playing football, basketball, and going out. What I mean appreciate what the world has to offer. What god created in this world.

Have you ever been to the beach? It's so beautiful to smell the fresh air and to look at how the waves hits against the sand. And how I love to walk next to my boyfriend and talk about our future. And look at my boyfriend's beautiful eyes and telling me how much he loves me.....(moping) I'm sorry guys I'm crying right now..........when I'm typing
this. This really special to me. This is serious. I love life sometimes, is cruel too. But, I do deal with it.

(clearing tears away)

You see guys...PMS gets me emotional. Oh well...


I didn't say all women suffer from pms some do, I do. I don't know the facts but, is true. If you are a women, we get all mad and start crying for no reason. And someone states "Are you on your period?" now tell me if that's being sexes...

All women suffer in child birth the contractions when you are about to dialet. Back in the days they didn't use drugs on women when they had babies. They had to had natural child births. The reason I know that is because my mom told me that the doctors didn't give her any pain killers she had me in natural birth. My poor mother of mine. Like, I'm like a coward I'm gonna tell the doctors to put in drugs. I'm such a coward.
Anyways, now of days a 15 old girl could have a baby cause' they don't need to feel the "real" child birth.

Cause' I know they drug them. So they won't feel the pain.

Now think about it. "Sexes"This was the word that one kid called me. Are you gonna go to his side? First of all his a male. He has no idea how it's like having your period every month. It's feels like your peeing all the time.
I sometimes I hate that. I get concern if I don't put my pad correctly.

But, is part of life. Is part of being a women. And like that, I could know I'm not pregnant. So, is for safety measures. I guess you can't all say those little boys kick me off the forum. But, I really don't care now cause'
now I know those boys are gonna end up alone anyways, who knows what future hold for this mean kiddies?

Some of the kids were very friendly I really appreciate that. And those are the kids who are gonna treat women right when they grow up. The people in my age range were very nice.They were very helpful and I thank them. But, I got tired with some of the rude people that forum. I got tired...and it kinda wasted my time.

Is kinda hard to talk sense to people when you are typing especially when you are downloading something. Yup...I was
downloading something and my computer went to slow. So, I couldn't edit all the stuff I post it.

Now tell me people if I'm being closed minded?
am I being sexes?
But, anyways...that's all I have to say about mean kids this days. So...bye...
(Note: Tabulas is different from forums. I love this place...and all the people here!!)

I was getting tired of the other one so I decided to make this one. I just love it. Kurt Cobain...he's so cute. Too bad his dead...

anywho, I have to go eat something now...

(Oh yeah...I want to say thank you to the one person who post it in my journal. He was one of the member of that forum. )

Pleople that said my website design suck.... does this suck?

It turns out my sick again.

I guess avoiding my boyfriend for about week 1 1/2 didn't work. But, I'm not blamming my boyfriend I'm kinda blamming myself.

I think about 5 days ago. It was night I felt as sleep. For some reason I turn on the fucking fan. Why? I don't know I guess I did it cause' I was hot. The next morning I woke up with my throat sore. I didn't took it seriously but, I said what the hell. It's just temporary. I was wrong. Oh well...

(I can't talk cause' it hurts. )

My boyfriend came yesterday. He was so nice to buy me "halls" for my throat, he so sweet. We kinda slept on the couch together. He was so tired. He work all night and he kinda got in to a fight with his boss. But, like his so smart he clear it all up. I guess, he knows what's he doing anyways.......We slept together and it was nice. I doubt he won't get the cold cause' he already got it. But, it was nice to see him again. I hope I get to see him again. And we could do something. I'm very worried about Valentine's Day. I hope I feel better. I've better start doing something for Danny. I want to put a big message in Valentine's Day. And I want him to see it.

Well...........bye...........cough*

I've already have my boyfriend's valentine. Yesterday I took some cough medicine to make me feel better. Rigth now I feel very stuff up. But, I could still feel more improvement.

My boyfriend was gonna be busy today. He has to pay some bills and I guess I assume planed our Valentine's date for tomorrow. So I say to all of you Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Man it had been two times I have to deleted my tagboard in .Claudia's Anime Chamber. Mean people had been posting mean things. Like I suk, and my layout is ugly. I don't know why there doing it. But, it's very annoying specially when my beautiful site is involved...I love my anime site. I'm a anime fan. I can't help to think that there's immature people out there. Well...I don't have to say that. I face them already. F***...I'm very piss off. Anywho, is it a crime to have a site that I dedicated to anime? No...but, this person doesn't think so.

Anywho...I'm very upset and I hope this person won't start something. I really want to know how track people who are doing that. Cause' is not nice.

I'm feeling much better. I guess I over stress myself too much. But, I should cool down a little. I'm like the type of person who gets very annoyed by people criticism but, oh well...I guess I have to handle it.
Is not like I'm dying or something. Anywho, yesterday....My boyfriend brought his DVD's episodes of Inu-Yasha. I was really enjoying the
anime. It's really funny and the plot is very understandable. Now I know
what Inu-Yasha is all about. I manage to scan his DVD's so I could put up on my Anime Site. I was gonna scanned the limited edition calendar. But, I just couldn't do it cause' that would stealing. And plus...you have to support the anime....anywho...everything on my site is running smoothly. I double check everything. It's very hard to maintain a site. But, it's
fun!!

Non-stop editing my whole site. I'm trying to clean it up. So far is looking really good. But, I know this weekend I'll try not to go online. I'm gonna be resting and I need to see my boyfriend. He came by....yesterday. He brought Inu-Yasha. I manage to finish watching it all.

I love that shippo...character he's too cute. Also, I really want to buy some anime art books to scanned and make a website about anime art junk. But, I guess...I have to many sites. I need to chill. My friend Shaza she told me to make a another anime site. But, not just only about anime. A specific series. But, I really don't know what. There's so many anime sites out there so. I don't have a clue of what anime I should make about. I could make an Akane site. But, that's already made already. And it's really neat.

(I'm talking about anime junk. )

Anyways, I had a great time with my boyfriend. I didn't recover all the way. I was coughing too much. I did took some medicine. Also last night I kinda pass out. The whole day. I didn't ate that much. But, just a little.

Anyways...luckly I have a friend out there that believes in me. And she supports my site 100% so, I should give here a big cheer..
THANKS SHAZA!!

It turns out that me and my boyfriend are truly planning to move in together. Yesterday we went to target and he wanted to look at some funiture. He was saying that he would love to decorate are future apartment. He said it so cute that it made me feel very special in a way. Cause' I truly notice he really wants to be with me. For sure. I'm happy for it. I've told him I don't like to be a pack rat. I hate it my mom always storing lots of crap that she doesn't need. It always safe to know what you have in your house cause' like that you won't get too overwhelme about the certain situation as finding the remote for your t.v. or trying to find something to wear.

I really don't want to get stress about that. I want everything to be perfect.
I want us to be great. Anywho, he look so cute looking at the dish ware and house ware when we were at target. He told me he likes his funiture natural wood. I've told him I love wood. It's simple and you can mix and match with anything. Anywho, we went to look for "Polly's" is great restuarant that makes good pies. Especially lemon pies. But, I couldn't remember the address. Specially when it started to rain. It was even worse.

We went to his house and we chill and drank beer. I got so blasted. But, not that drunk. It was like about 11:12 p.m. that I've told him to take me home. It was raining really hard. I usually get so nervous when his driving on the freeway. I'm not saying his a bad driver. I'm saying the other cars are. He drove good. As usual. And we kissed goodnight and told him if he would come over today. So, we can watch "Space Ghost" he bought the first season on DVD. Anywho, today I should expect him to come. Fun time today!!

So.... I guess that's it.

Today my boyfriend called me. He wanted my brother to come out
with him cause' he wanted to buy some computer games at "Frie's". It was very nice day. I love being with him. But, this time I felt him so distance. I know my brother had been best friends since high school. But, I missed him so. We went to Fry's is a place just like "Best Buy" but, better. It has alot of DVD's movies and electronics. I really enjoy looking at things
I wish I could buy.

Anywho, I kinda made an ass of my self playing that dancing revolution game. There was this girl who was competing with this kid. They were really good. As for myself I never played that game. Luckly they have in playstation. Cause' one day I want to purchase it for work out purposes. I'm kinda getting lazy. And I need to work out.

Anyways, like I said before I was sucking big time with this game. I ask the kid how do you play it? I was too clueless. I kinda lots. Well...totally.

We browse the whole store. It's too huge. I guess we took like 5 hours to look at everything. I really want a digital camera. Cause' I love taking pictures. One day I'll have one.

Anyways, my boyfriend drop us off. It was like 4:30 p.m. I really wanted to hang out with him. But, he look so tired. I gave him a break. But, I felt sad cause' I really wanted to be with him. Oh well... maybe tomorrow I'll see him.

Lately I've been looking at Vintage websites. Specially, cute shops like this one: .Kiki's Kitsh Corner It has very cute things there. Mostly 50's and 60's stuff.
I love retro stuff. Special hand bags and bracelets. I make bracelets myself. I really want to open up my own shop online. I really like to sew. Especially sew cute bags. That's my long time dream. oh well...

Anyways, right now I'm very full. I ate 4 big shrimps today. It was cooked with lots of garlic. It was good. Anywho...I guess that's about it. Thanks for dropping by...