This morning I decided to cook something especial to my mom. It went well by the way. She really enjoy her breakfast and I really enjoy watching her be happy. I cooked her pancakes, and eggs. She said she loved it.
I feel sad cause' I wish I could be mother myself. Just to think of having a little human being sitting by you and telling how much they love you. That's very special. In about 2 weeks or so, I'm turning 25. Yes, I'm old...
>.< Anyways, This friday, I went to see Van Helsing. It was really good. I pretty enjoy it. My boyfriend wanted me to have a nice date. I'm wondering what's he gonna plan for me for my B-Day. I just can't wait.

Anyways, to all the mothers in world I'm wishing you Happy Mother's Day.

My heart is broken to pieces....I feel alone now....I just wish I could die...now.....

The last entry I posted was very harsh...because' I was going through some crisis with my relationship. But, in the pass few days I didn't use the comp. what's so ever. I didn't ate that much and I guess I must of lost like about 6 pounds of being depress....

Me and my boyfriend talked things through and we both realized we should see our future brighter. I can't tell you the details but, I'm really happy now. I know this love is gonna last for ever and ever.

Today, me and my guy went to see "Troy" it was pretty cool. In the end of the movie I was the only one who clap well...my boyfriend did too.

Anyways, I'm turning 25 next week....so...me and my boyfriend are planning to go somewhere fun to celebrate my 25th birthday...

I didn't give any details about my problems with my relationship. Is kinda private. But, it was really hard for me to deal with such pain. But, I manage to be strong. My boyfriend is going through some hard times. And I manage to help him out by being patient with him.
This month is gonna be a month I will never forget. At times a women's life have to make decision if there making the right choices. I've tried to be positive alot. But, some guilt inside I did in the pass cannot go away. But, If god wanted me to experience this in the last two days. I kinda deserve it. But, I manage to pull through of how harsh the circumtances life is offering me. I know life is not gonna be rainbows and roses. But, I have to be strong this time.

Anyways, I feel my love for my boyfriend is much stronger than before. My family had been very supportive and they manage to make me happy when I was going through some hard times in the last 3 days. They bought me the Rock Steady DVD No Doubt concert and the "Rock Steady album too. I couldn't believe my brother surprise me that way. When I saw it I cried like a kid. I gave my brother a big hug. He such a sweet heart. So, I've been enjoying that DVD ever since. I kinda watch it like 10 times. I can't ever get enough of "NO DOUBT" I'm very happy now.

Anyways, my boyfriend and me are gonna do something special on my b-day. We are planning to go anywhere I want. So, I can't wait for that moment.

Anyways, that's about it...thanks...

It's my heart broken? Well, it is.

I was the one with all the love in the relationship. I guess he couldn't give me love. I could not understand why. But, he told me that he still wants me to be part of his life. I guess be friends. But, it's kinda of hard. Mostly he told that he wanted to do his own thing. And he said that I should do my own thing. But, the only thing I wanted in life was to be with him. But, I guess not now. Maybe in the future I just hope so.

Love does last forever. Sometimes you need to take a little break. I'm hurt but, it made boyfriend realized that, he needed to go sort of some things in his life!!

Anyways, yesterday I called my friend and I've told her what happend. She told me that everything will be fine between me and my boyfriend. I can't say my ex-boyfriend. His still my boyfriend no matter what. He is a boy and his my friend. So, his still part in my life. Anyways, she's going through some hard times now. I will be there for her. She really needs me and I need her too.


This song is too depressing
You and me
we used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

It looks as though your letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't Speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't Speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can see us dying... are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't Speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Don't speak
Don't speak

It was very weird been friends with my boyfriend. It took us like one day to realized that. We were making a mistake. I really missed him alot. Is like my heart fealt empty. I felt like I need it his love. He told me that too. For cyring out loud, I'm 25 years old. 5 more years I'll be 30 and I can't waste my time of being alone.

Good thing everything is back to normal so I'm very happy.