Tomorrow I'm gonna go working and work in a Nusery Day Care Center is in a church. They need someone in every sunday to look after kids while the parents are in the church. So, I'm gonna look after them 2 hours every Sunday. It's pretty good. Cause' there gonna pay me 200 bucks every month and the hours are not that bad. I have another work I was gonna start working but, it never happend. I guess they really didn't needed someone to work there. But, I think this job would be great. Cause' I love babysitting kids and basically there so cute and fun to play with. So, wish me luck.

Anywho, today I went to see the lady that got me the job. She, explain everything what I was gonna do. She seems very nice. I went there early and manage to peak what was happening in the church. It kinda looks like they were gonna have a wedding. I saw the bride, she look beautiful.

Anyways, wish me luck, guys.+

I just wish the people who is destroying my happiness just go away...let me be happy...

They had their lives why can't they just live us alone.

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To tell the thruth my boyfriend's parents is affecting my relationship. Their like parasites....They just want more, more from my boyfriend. They live their lives all happy, but, my guy doesn't. He gets to stress out. And that affects me. I really want him to be happy. His budget status is bad. Why can't they just live him alone. His living with them cause' he has no choice. But, I really want him to move out. Once I get a job. I really want for us to move in together for sure. And this time he better listen to me of what I have to say.

I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say this online but, I just feel very frustrated. I really love him. And I need feedback from all of you. Of what to do.

I can't go on any details but, I think my boyfriend has sucidal thoughts. And that breaks my heart even more. He tells me he can't stand his life. But, I really want to be more supportive...Sorry for being to foward on this entry. But, I love him very much. What should I do?

I called my boyfriend, he seems pretty good. He says his going to deal with it and try to change some things. As for myself I got a job already. I'm not making much money but, it's a start for me to save up for my future. Some of the things that back me off of being afraid to work on outside the world was my face. Yes, I have acne. But, It always takes over my life. I really want to be outgoing and happy. But, when I think about it. I feel more depressed. I know I shouldn't but, it makes me feel that's one of the reasons I was not popular in school. Who care's if I was unpopular but, at least I manage to meet nice friends I have now.

Anyways, my boyfriend is gonna start working day shifts. That's good for him. Now he can sleep like a normal person. He kinda felt like a zombie when he was working night shifts. I've always respect his sleep. Until this day. Anyways, I will support him in. And tell him to be strong. I know money it's not important. But, the only thing I want for my love is to be happy. That's the only thing.

Thanks for all your comments and I will give hugs. Hugs tone's down stress so....he will received a hug today. Thanks.

Well, I woke up at 8:00 o'clock got in the shower and my dad took me to work.

I arrived at 9:25 or so. And the nursery was not open. The man who usually opens the door for me he arrived later. He open the door and it caught to my surprised that he was asking me alot of weird question. I felt very unsure.

He first ask me If I like coffee?
I reply no...
Then he ask me if I like beer?
I was speechless... and annoyed...
He looks like a 40 year old and he's not that attractive or appealing to me. I actually won't have a coversation with this man cause' he ask me weird shit. And also, I'm in love with my love of my life....what a fucker he is...of asking me that question. I'm the type of person who can get easily offended...for real...

Anyways....

And to mention that I work in a church how could he ask me that.
He actually looks like a pervert and I kinda got very uncomfortable.

Anyways, he went away and I was relief he left.
Then the babies started to come. In that time I babysat only 3 babies. It was hard as hell....

Both of the girls were crying alot. I just felt bad cause' there parents left them to me. And the babies wanted there mommies.

Well, it turn out to be pretty good day. But, accept that the room was very hot. I was toasting in there. So, I wanted to get out. I left about 11:30 or so, and waited for my brother to pick me up.

The weather here is terrible. I wanted to go home and take a nap.
Anywho, I've told my mom about what happend in that day. I even told her about the man asking me those annoying questions.

My dad met him once. He says that man looks like a jerk and he said if he try to cross the line. I should report his ass. And I will do it. Cause' I can't work in place that I feel very unsafe. I really want to enjoy my work and help the parents in the church Anywho....wish me luck this week.

Well, guys...that man wasn't there!! yay, it went pretty good cause' this time I had company. I met this girl name katie and she help me out with the kids. I was happy that I had help this time. I really didn't wanted to be stress out about it. This time I took care of Jesse and it was easy and relaxing.

Anywho, this week I have to finish rearranging my room cuase' the manager is gonna put new carpet and that means I need to take all my stuff out and put it in boxes and I need to do alot this week. So it's gonna be STRESSFUL >.<....man....

Thanks for all your comments!!

I'm very excited to buy my own domain guys, I just found a cool host that's very affordable within' my price range and it has alot of mb of space. Hopefully by next week I'll be able to upload all my files to my new domain and be able to update!!