"It's so hard to lie to your parents about certain things that is happening in your life. But, some things that parents had to know about what's happening. If you make that decision."
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I had a major breakout that I cannot forget. It was too horrible. Now my skin it's red but, it's dried out. My mom saw me crying and I told her I wanted to die. She started to cry and I felt bad. I didn't wanted to hurt my mom this way. We talked and talked. And I decided to tell her that I'm not a virgin anymore. This topic came about when we were talking about menstrual cycles and periods. We were talking about tampons and pads. My mom told me she doesn't like to use tampons. I thought tampons were only use by women who are not virgins anymore. Anyways, *back to topic.

I just couldn't lie to her anymore. I felt guilty. I'm 25, and I made that decision with my boyfriend. So, I think I didn't do nothing wrong. Well, when I gave my mom the news, she took it pretty good, she understood and she gave me a hug.

I think by telling her this secret, took off a big weight on my shoulders. It felt good. And she had to know the thruth, that I'm sexually active. It's nothing wrong of having sex. It's use I love my boyfriend too much and I want to express it physically.

Therefore, when I had the big talk with my mom I feel self assure. I feel safe and confidence to tell my mom anything. Not everything but, certain things that had being bothering me. So, did I did told her too soon?

Or did I did the right thing?

I just adopted this. Well, so far my new treatment have being doing great. I get breakouts but, a little but, so far is good.

Anyways, I barely bought my boyfriend a gift. I bought him the Dirty Harry Collection (Box Set)


I took a long time to decide. Cause' I wanted his gift to be perfect. I just hope he likes it.

Therefore. I'm wishing you a merry christmas!!!

Anyways, I got a big flare up and I got a few zits on my face. In that morning I just pop a few so, it won't look too terrible, Anyways, Everything was going fine and this lady just approach to me and said "oh, what do you use in your acne?" and then she started to babble about don't eat this don't eat that...It was very embarrasing. I just felt like I was in a spot. I felt embarrass *spell check...

Then, she said that she was like me. That she didn't go out much and she felt ugly. Once that bitch said that, I started to cry....

She totally made me felt like shit.

I'm sorry guys but, when you have your period and if you have a major breakout those two elements could put you in a major breakdown.

Anyways, she was saying save 1000 bucks to go phycian and I said I've told her that I'm not rich. And I know for sure I can't save enought for that. I can't for personal reasons. She gave me her phone number. I left, at church really sad. I felt stupid. I should just told her off. I mean, you can't just go up to a person and tell them stuff. I don't even know her. I just think she should of done it in a different way.

After that, I decided to called her. I'm a nice person I really don't like to insult people but, I decided to talk to her. I told her my situation. And I told her thanks for your concern. And she was saying the reason I get acne is because of my diet. How the hell does she knows about what I eat? I eat pretty healthy. But, the bad part I break out when I have my period. Don't know why but, that's how my body is. I just think is not what you eat. Is how your body is. My body is different than her. DUH..of course it is. But, I just think I should of be more confidence and just told her that her mentality about acne it's just wrong.

In the past few months I have been feeling a little depress. The thing that ticks me off is that she believes eating chocolate makes you have acne...

I think this woman doesn't know what's she's talking about. She's just naive about acne.

She even told me she started acne in her 30's and she knows how I feel. But, some type of encouragement that she gave me wasn't helping me at all.

I'm sorry guys I just needed to take this off out of my chest...

Right now I feel much better. I'm exercising, drinking lots of water doing my regimen and next time I see that bitch I should tell her that she's not helping at all. She should just shut her mouth. That's the type of helping she would give me....

Like I am a nice person she doesn't know I hate her guts...I'm just playing off being friendly. Is better for her ass not to know I don't like her. But, maybe she will grow on me someday...

3 years ago I was in a strong treatment. But, now I'm using a new treatment that my skin have never gone use to. It's clearing up but, I'm getting small amout of breakouts. I just need to be patient. Is pretty hard cause I wanted it to work right away. But, I think I need to wait. Anyways, Christmas is about 6 days to go and I'm very exicited. I can't wait to give my boyfriend his gift. And also, I'm wondering what he got me. I hope is an engagement ring. Cause' I want to get married....Yes, I think I'm ready to be a wife and have kids. I envy couples so much that they are together. But, I know I will be with him someday. It's sad to say I didn't got to see my boyfriend yesterday. I only saw him 1 day within' a week. It was toture. But, I know I'm gonna get to see often this week. Can't wait. Also, I gave my dad a christmas envelope with 20 bucks in it. And also, at church I got a 20 dollar gift card for target and also a cute candle. I love candles. Especially the candle that they gave me smell like roses. It's too lovely. I think I must of spend at church very happy. I drank alot but, I just need it to feel happy. Especially in the last few weeks feeling really crappy I just need it a little boost.

Therefore...can't wait.

I think it was midnight when I open my brother's gift and my boyfriend's gift. To tell you the thruth I loved both of them. My boyfriend got me the Taiko Drum Master for the PS2. It's so fun. Here's the example:


Very cool game for people who love interactive games. I think I got the hang of it for 2 days. I'm pretty good. I could only do it on easy mode I can't on hard mode need more practice. Overall it's fun.




Also I got a puzzle game too. For my gamecube. Love it.

My brother game me Pucca stuff. He got everything. I got a cute doll of pucca. HUGE...and hugable. Also my brother got me a pillow too. And lot's of paper goods. Stationaries of Pucca and cute charms.


I couldn't find the pictures of the slippers I got. I wish I had a digital camera to show you all my stuff. I also got a cute top of kermit the frog and a wristband. And a cristmas stocking from bailey. Overall, it was great christmas. My mom got a lot of gifts too. My boyfriend love his Dirty Harry movie collection. I was so happy to see my boyfriend's face when he saw it. Just seeing him smiling made my day. Also, my brother love his gift too. He was about to cry. Cause' he always wanted that movie I gave him "The Professional" the European Ver. Very rare to find. They don't make it anymore. So, my brother was very pleased. Therefore. I'm wishing you all a merry christmas and have a great year guys. I just hope my year would be great. Hope so...

Thanks for your comments. Love you!!




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