Hey guys!!! in this past days I have been feeling sick. Last night I couldn't sleep at all. My stomach was in pain. And I think I must contracted some ulcer or something. I really felt like shit. Also, my lips develop a bad "cold sore" damn.... I truly have bad luck.

Not to mention, that I lost my job too!! The funny part my boss called me and fired me. He didn't even tried to talk to me in person. But, he never did. Anyway, sorry to say this guys. It just I feel like my whole life is coming down in to rumble.

I think this thursday I will go to the hospital with my dad. His having a eye surgery. So, i just hope I would feel much better.

Therefore, thank you for dropping by....

BYE!

Last night, I went to my first bar. Yeah, I'm 27 years old and I never been to a bar before... >__> is very lame but, I did had a great time. My boyfriend said I got very exicited. I guess I did. I really wanted these people to talk about something. They just stood quite. I wanted to socialized with them. But, they were so lame. There IQ's were really low. I guess they couldn't come up with anything to say. Anyway, the food was awsome. We had appetizers and I had a margatita, it got me a little drunk. Well, the reason I said I got a little exicited cause' I was slamming tables and snaping my fingers to get some attention. But, I guess I got a little carried away. >__>

Today, I feel much better though. My cold sore went away. My stomach doesn't hurt anymore. I was so surprised I didn't had a hang over. Cause' I drank a glass of margarita. BTW

One of my friends in the army came today. He took me to eat pizza. I really didn't wanted any. But, he said if I don't eat, he won't eat. So, I had to eat. He took his little brother to meet me. He is so cute. But, really shy... He doesn't speak. Is hard to make him speak. I had a great time to see my friend again. He stills looks the same. I think it had been like 2 years, I haven't seen him. I just hope tomorrow he gets to see my boyfriend too. They are really good friends. I think it would be good for my guy to stay in touch with him. It will do him good.

Anyway....

I started to think about what had happend last night. And let me tell you. Is hard to make a first impression to a person that you don't know. I really wanted to meet new friends. But, it seems it's hard to meet new people. Cause' um... you really feel that you need to be a different person. I think is gonna be hard to be myself if I meet new people. I'm very different towards other people. I love anime, art, guns, and most of all... I love to talk about anything. I tried to do that last night. But, I felt they were too clueless to have a coversation with me. They only wanted to get loaded. My boyfriend explain me that. And I think it really stupid. If, your gonna go to a fancy bar. At least have the courtesy to talk about something. I mean.... that's the whole purposed to meet people. I tried my best to have a coversation with one of them. But, they just turn away. I felt like they didn't wanted to know me. I really wanted to know more about them.

Anyway, I came to a conlusion... next time. I will just let people approach me. Instead, of me approaching them.



Meeting new people is really hard....
I just hope... I could have more friends.

Okay, 2 days ago... well...

It all started when my boyfriend send his brother to go get some food. My boyfriend loves eating really good. So, he wanted me to cook steak, smash potatoes, and broccoli. I didn't have a problem with that. I mean, I love to cook. Anyway, he also told his brother to buy wine. So, we can drink it while we are eating dinner.

Well, I did manage to cook everything thanks to his brother for helping me cook the steak. When we ate the food. It was delicious. I mean it tasted really good. I mean the steaks were thick and juicy that it made my mouth water. LOL

Anyway, I really enjoyed eating the food. So, after we finish it. We decided to drink some wine. I took a cup and fill it up. It taste really good. Then I wanted more, and more. I think I had like 4 cups of wine. I got so drunk that I started to talk all loud. My boyfriend told me I was slapping him. Oh my, WTF... he also said I trew up everywhere. All over the house. CHUNKS OF MEAT everywhere. Also, in that day his brother wash his blanket and I totally vomit on it too. The next day I had different clothes and I woke up... really sad. Cause' I started to remember what happend. I did remember me votiming in the bathroom, it felt like I was gonna die. Luckly my boyfriend was sober and he help me alot. He took my clothes off cause' I kinda defile it too. So, he put me in some clean clothes. I felt bad when I started to have my memories back. It wasn't really clear but, I asked my boyfriend to tell me what happen.

WTF? I guess I should take it easy on the wine. I really don't want that to happen again. It fucking sucks you know. <----- i was like this..
LOL

Anyway... I will never drink that much again.. My boyfriend said I got so annoying. That's so fucking embarrasing...
damn...