I ask myself that question all the time. Cause' I feel I control my fiance too much. It's very weird how our relationship end up like that. Cause' before I wasn't like this. I guess I want everything to be perfect. I want to have a perfect life. Like everyone wants, they want to live more confortable.
Just like last weekend. My fiance went out to pay the rent. Then a couple of hours later, I get a phonecall. He calls me If it's okay to bring his friend over? Cause' he has tickets for a football game. The UCLA were gonna play at the rosebowl. I said "Okay, it's fine!" then later on, it was "midnight" he comes home all drunk. And also his friend was all drunk too... and his "brother" was too. I was like. What the hell? I said to myself. I was like, this is night gonna be a good night for me. Cause' his brother is like a fucking owl and a pig. He hardly sleeps at night. And his messy.
Anyway, it did end up that way. I got paranoid cause' he was going outside and living the door all open. I told him to closed the door cause' I have very valuable stuff here. He said "OKAY, OKAY!"
Anyway, I went back to my room and of course my fiance it's all pass out. He sleeps pretty fast. I wish I had the ability to fall asleep that quick. But, I really don't.
I got so mad and woke him up. I was complaning that I should of just said "NO" I change my mind. He was like " stop bitching and we talk about it tommorrow!" I was so tense that I just went back to the computer and started to make graphics. Just to ease down my stress. His brother was still out there doing things.
His brother could be cool when my fiance is not home. If you get to know him. You'll like him. But, when it comes to living with him. You end up "hating" him. Well, the reason I know that is because he just to live with my fiance. And he was very messy and did not fulfill all his responsibilites of paying what it's due.
So, his brother didn't wanted to pay the rent so, he moved out.
That's what he told my fiance.
His brother tells me a different story. He said he moved out cause' he wanted me and my fiance to start a family. TOTAL BULLSHIT!!
I really don't think he is honest with me. But, I don't care. I'm here with my love and I'm happy. I know his jealous of me. But, I really don't care. Anyway, to get back of me of been a "control freak" well, I order my fiance to do things. I order his brother around too! Cause' he doesn't have the responsibility of cleaning after himself. Cause' his mother didn't teach him that. His mom it's just like him. YES, my mother in law is a messy lady. But, she has other issues.
Okay, I know I told you guys that I couldn't sleep at all. So, I turn in to the computer. Then I got so tired that I "try" to go to sleep. I just couldn't it was too loud. So, I woke up angry. When I don't get a night sleep I wake up grouchy. But, I try to not to show it. Luckly his brother was living to work. He works at 11:00 a.m. "LUCKY BASTARD" I wish I could have a job that I could get in on that time.
Anyway, I wanted to use the bathroom and he was in there. He asked me "you want to use it?" I said "YES!" then I see his "dirty ass socks" near the toilet. I got so upset but didn't show it to my face. Then I tell him "Charlie! can you please pick up your sock?" so he came in and pick it up. I could see his face, and it wasn't happy. I know he doesn't like people telling him what to do. But, he did that. So he needs to learn.
He pick it up and did not say a word. I know he didn't like it. But, I was like okay... that's better. So, he left and I decided to make food. So, when I got in the kitchen. Guess what I saw in the floor? His socks.... his dirty ass socks. I was like... OMG! I just couldn't stand it! My fiance came in. And I just had to open my mouth and say it, "I don't want to be rude, But, I think your brother is retarted" so I went on and said alot of stuff that bother me about his brother. We started to talk about it. But, my fiance refuse to listen. He always says I'm bitching to much. His friend was noticing that. And he was like in shock. But, he didn't got in to our conversation. It was just between me and my fiance. We stop arguing and we started to eat. I started to cry and his friend said, "claudia, this is so good, thank you" he notice I was upset. So, I choke down my food. And went to my room. I get pretty easily offended... but, I just had to say that.
Anyway.....
I guess, I do seem to be a "control freak" who likes to have everything neat. I love to have a clean home. It just gets me happy. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT?
YOU SEE?
If you were in my shoes, would you like to invite someone I mean I didn't invited him he just invites himself but, would you ever let a messy person in your home?
So.........
I guess...
his brother feels when everytime he comes over, he just do what he wants. I did told him some stuff that I wasn't to cool about. But, I don't know if he listens to me.
Next time, I wont' say anything.
And just be cool with it. Is not like I don't like him. It just his messy...
that's his flaw.
I wonder what the lucky girl who falls in love with him would do?
DON'T KNOW, bless her heart.
PS: his brother eats all my food! UWU so that's why I'm a control freak!!
in Life
